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I m not good at shit like that, and it makes me feel stupid. Echo
comes along that same night, and he s so small and fragile, I don t
know how to be around him. That makes me feel like an asshole.
I get it. Keep going.
I try, but I just feel like I m always messing something up.
We ve all played with Onyx before, but that s all it was playing.
So when did it turn into something more than that? Onyx says
the night Echo made his bargain with Ares.
I knew from the beginning that my test wouldn t be about
fighting with my hands. It s going to come down to wits, and let s
face it, I don t have a whole lot of those.
The muscles in Hex s jaw ticked, but he didn t speak.
If we lose him, it s going to be my fault. I can t live with that
kind of guilt. Myst sighed and dropped his head. I found Onyx that
night. By the end of that week, I was going to the playroom almost
every night, but it wasn t enough. I needed more. When Onyx said he
wouldn t do it, I told him I d find someone who would.
Myst hated himself for playing that card with the warrior. He d
seen the hurt in Onyx s eyes, but he d also seen the resignation. He d
latched on to the latter and pushed the rest from his mind.
Why are you telling me this? What s changed?
Behind Closed Doors 57
Now seemed like a good time to test out Vapre s theory. Tell me
something, Hex. Do you have all the answers? Do you ever worry that
we re not going to win this thing?
Every fucking day.
That s what changed. Syx and Vapre finally got it through my
thick head that I m not the only one with doubts and concerns. I m
not the only one that doesn t have all the answers, and that s okay.
We ll find the solution together, Hex replied quietly.
Myst nodded. Once we escaped the Underworld, we could have
all gone our separate ways, but we didn t. We re supposed to be
together. I ll fight for my family.
Hex gathered Myst into his arms and kissed him with so much
passion it was a wonder the room didn t catch on fire. We ll fight
together, baby. You re not stupid, and it doesn t make you weak to
need someone to talk to.
Yeah, I know. More than that, it wasn t fair what I did to Onyx. I
don t know if he ll forgive me. There was his biggest fear. He d
crossed the boundaries with Onyx, and he didn t know how to get
back to the other side.
He will.
Myst didn t want to travel down that road just yet. Can I ask you
something?
Anything.
Why wouldn t you fix my nose when Echo broke it?
Hex chuckled and moved to sit with his back to the headboard.
Well, first, I wasn t exactly feeling friendly after watching you let
that waiter rub all over you. Secondly, Echo didn t break your nose.
Your clumsy ass was able to do that all on your own.
Myst s breathing sped, and his cock began to fill.
Hex looked at him and smirked. What s this?
Groaning, Myst shook his head. This part still made him feel like
a freak. I like when you guys are jealous.
It s nice isn t it?
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Myst s head snapped up, and he gaped at the alpha. What?
It s probably not rational, but I like feeling that I belong to
someone. When you guys get possessive, it turns me on. Hex
shrugged, not in the least bit embarrassed about his desire.
So, I m not a freak?
Hex snorted. Well, if you are, so am I. Now, about your nose,
he continued as though he hadn t just pulled Myst back from the
abyss. The other reason I didn t fix it was because I won t get in
between you and Echo, or any of you for that matter. I ll step in if it
gets to be a big deal, like this thing with Onyx. Otherwise, I don t take
sides, and you know that.
Myst dipped his head. So, are we okay now?
We re always okay. Do we understand each other a little better
now? Yeah, I think so.
What do I do now?
Babe, I m not a gypsy with a crystal ball. I don t have all the
answers, and I can t decide for you if I did. What do you think you
should do?
I should probably go talk to Onyx.
Then that s what you do.
Myst crawled up the mattress and kissed Hex s lips. Thank you
for listening and not making me feel like a crazy person.
We re all a little crazy, Myst. It comes with the territory. I just
wish you would have trusted me enough to talk to me about this
earlier.
It wasn t trust. I didn t want anyone to know which is another
reason I need to find Onyx and apologize. It wasn t right for me to
make him keep this a secret.
Hex kissed him again and swatted his hip. Then get out of here.
I m going to take a nap. If anyone needs me, tell them to fuck off.
Myst laughed all the way out of the room.
Behind Closed Doors 59
Chapter Seven
Fiero was beyond pissed off as he stormed down the hallway
looking for Myst. He found the warrior coming out of Hex s room,
laughing his fool head off. In three strides, he reached the man and
shoved him up against the wall.
I want to know what s going on, and I want to know now. If
someone doesn t start giving me some goddamn answers I
Fiero was abruptly cut off when Myst grabbed the back of his
head and plunged his tongue into Fiero s mouth. Fiero couldn t help
but respond. Damn, Myst kissed like a dream. They disengaged long
minutes later, each panting and clinging to each other.
I m a stupid son of a bitch, and I put Onyx in a position that you
should never do to someone you love. I made him whip me until my
back and ass were raw, but he refused to ever make me bleed. Myst
narrowed his eyes. Don t you dare be pissed off at him, either. He
did it because he loves me, and he knows I would have gone out and
gotten what I needed somewhere else. This is my mess, so be pissed
at me.
Fiero felt like someone had clubbed him over the head. It was one
thing to learn about Myst s little kink of liking to make them jealous.
This went beyond kink, and straight into the realm of disturbing.
Furthermore, guilt stabbed him right in the heart for not seeing it
before. What kind of lover and partner was he, anyway?
No more, he mumbled. He couldn t seem to find his bearings,
and it unnerved the hell out of him. Never again.
Nope. I had my doubts that I could make it through this damn
war without the playroom, but I don t think I need it anymore. I m
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starting to see that I m not the only one with problems, and oddly
enough, it helps.
Winding his arms around Myst s back, Fiero dragged the man into
his arms and hugged him fiercely. I m sorry I let you down.
You didn t let me down. I let myself down, and I let all of you
down. I can t promise I m just going to change overnight, but I m
working on it.
No more, Fiero repeated. I ll give you whatever you need.
I know. I m glad Echo finally gave us a kick in the ass to make
me see that.
Fiero chuckled softly and kissed Myst s forehead. Yeah, me,
too. Life had been good before Echo arrived. They d all gotten
along, held a mutual respect for one another, and the sex had been
amazing.
It was nothing compared to how he felt these days. The simple
thought of anything happening to one of his men was enough to drive
him to his knees. They were connected, and he doubted any of them
could survive without the other.
I love you.
Sighing heavily, Fiero leaned forward and rested his forehead
against Myst s. I love you, too. He brushed their lips together. So,
why were you laughing?
Because Hex said he s taking a nap.
Fiero didn t really see why this was funny. His confusion must
have shown on his face, because Myst started laughing again. Echo
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I m not good at shit like that, and it makes me feel stupid. Echo
comes along that same night, and he s so small and fragile, I don t
know how to be around him. That makes me feel like an asshole.
I get it. Keep going.
I try, but I just feel like I m always messing something up.
We ve all played with Onyx before, but that s all it was playing.
So when did it turn into something more than that? Onyx says
the night Echo made his bargain with Ares.
I knew from the beginning that my test wouldn t be about
fighting with my hands. It s going to come down to wits, and let s
face it, I don t have a whole lot of those.
The muscles in Hex s jaw ticked, but he didn t speak.
If we lose him, it s going to be my fault. I can t live with that
kind of guilt. Myst sighed and dropped his head. I found Onyx that
night. By the end of that week, I was going to the playroom almost
every night, but it wasn t enough. I needed more. When Onyx said he
wouldn t do it, I told him I d find someone who would.
Myst hated himself for playing that card with the warrior. He d
seen the hurt in Onyx s eyes, but he d also seen the resignation. He d
latched on to the latter and pushed the rest from his mind.
Why are you telling me this? What s changed?
Behind Closed Doors 57
Now seemed like a good time to test out Vapre s theory. Tell me
something, Hex. Do you have all the answers? Do you ever worry that
we re not going to win this thing?
Every fucking day.
That s what changed. Syx and Vapre finally got it through my
thick head that I m not the only one with doubts and concerns. I m
not the only one that doesn t have all the answers, and that s okay.
We ll find the solution together, Hex replied quietly.
Myst nodded. Once we escaped the Underworld, we could have
all gone our separate ways, but we didn t. We re supposed to be
together. I ll fight for my family.
Hex gathered Myst into his arms and kissed him with so much
passion it was a wonder the room didn t catch on fire. We ll fight
together, baby. You re not stupid, and it doesn t make you weak to
need someone to talk to.
Yeah, I know. More than that, it wasn t fair what I did to Onyx. I
don t know if he ll forgive me. There was his biggest fear. He d
crossed the boundaries with Onyx, and he didn t know how to get
back to the other side.
He will.
Myst didn t want to travel down that road just yet. Can I ask you
something?
Anything.
Why wouldn t you fix my nose when Echo broke it?
Hex chuckled and moved to sit with his back to the headboard.
Well, first, I wasn t exactly feeling friendly after watching you let
that waiter rub all over you. Secondly, Echo didn t break your nose.
Your clumsy ass was able to do that all on your own.
Myst s breathing sped, and his cock began to fill.
Hex looked at him and smirked. What s this?
Groaning, Myst shook his head. This part still made him feel like
a freak. I like when you guys are jealous.
It s nice isn t it?
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Myst s head snapped up, and he gaped at the alpha. What?
It s probably not rational, but I like feeling that I belong to
someone. When you guys get possessive, it turns me on. Hex
shrugged, not in the least bit embarrassed about his desire.
So, I m not a freak?
Hex snorted. Well, if you are, so am I. Now, about your nose,
he continued as though he hadn t just pulled Myst back from the
abyss. The other reason I didn t fix it was because I won t get in
between you and Echo, or any of you for that matter. I ll step in if it
gets to be a big deal, like this thing with Onyx. Otherwise, I don t take
sides, and you know that.
Myst dipped his head. So, are we okay now?
We re always okay. Do we understand each other a little better
now? Yeah, I think so.
What do I do now?
Babe, I m not a gypsy with a crystal ball. I don t have all the
answers, and I can t decide for you if I did. What do you think you
should do?
I should probably go talk to Onyx.
Then that s what you do.
Myst crawled up the mattress and kissed Hex s lips. Thank you
for listening and not making me feel like a crazy person.
We re all a little crazy, Myst. It comes with the territory. I just
wish you would have trusted me enough to talk to me about this
earlier.
It wasn t trust. I didn t want anyone to know which is another
reason I need to find Onyx and apologize. It wasn t right for me to
make him keep this a secret.
Hex kissed him again and swatted his hip. Then get out of here.
I m going to take a nap. If anyone needs me, tell them to fuck off.
Myst laughed all the way out of the room.
Behind Closed Doors 59
Chapter Seven
Fiero was beyond pissed off as he stormed down the hallway
looking for Myst. He found the warrior coming out of Hex s room,
laughing his fool head off. In three strides, he reached the man and
shoved him up against the wall.
I want to know what s going on, and I want to know now. If
someone doesn t start giving me some goddamn answers I
Fiero was abruptly cut off when Myst grabbed the back of his
head and plunged his tongue into Fiero s mouth. Fiero couldn t help
but respond. Damn, Myst kissed like a dream. They disengaged long
minutes later, each panting and clinging to each other.
I m a stupid son of a bitch, and I put Onyx in a position that you
should never do to someone you love. I made him whip me until my
back and ass were raw, but he refused to ever make me bleed. Myst
narrowed his eyes. Don t you dare be pissed off at him, either. He
did it because he loves me, and he knows I would have gone out and
gotten what I needed somewhere else. This is my mess, so be pissed
at me.
Fiero felt like someone had clubbed him over the head. It was one
thing to learn about Myst s little kink of liking to make them jealous.
This went beyond kink, and straight into the realm of disturbing.
Furthermore, guilt stabbed him right in the heart for not seeing it
before. What kind of lover and partner was he, anyway?
No more, he mumbled. He couldn t seem to find his bearings,
and it unnerved the hell out of him. Never again.
Nope. I had my doubts that I could make it through this damn
war without the playroom, but I don t think I need it anymore. I m
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starting to see that I m not the only one with problems, and oddly
enough, it helps.
Winding his arms around Myst s back, Fiero dragged the man into
his arms and hugged him fiercely. I m sorry I let you down.
You didn t let me down. I let myself down, and I let all of you
down. I can t promise I m just going to change overnight, but I m
working on it.
No more, Fiero repeated. I ll give you whatever you need.
I know. I m glad Echo finally gave us a kick in the ass to make
me see that.
Fiero chuckled softly and kissed Myst s forehead. Yeah, me,
too. Life had been good before Echo arrived. They d all gotten
along, held a mutual respect for one another, and the sex had been
amazing.
It was nothing compared to how he felt these days. The simple
thought of anything happening to one of his men was enough to drive
him to his knees. They were connected, and he doubted any of them
could survive without the other.
I love you.
Sighing heavily, Fiero leaned forward and rested his forehead
against Myst s. I love you, too. He brushed their lips together. So,
why were you laughing?
Because Hex said he s taking a nap.
Fiero didn t really see why this was funny. His confusion must
have shown on his face, because Myst started laughing again. Echo
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